A Little More About Me
What is a Starseed? You are welcome to look on Google for the answer to this question, but why not take it from someone with first-hand experience? A Starseed is a soul from another place in the cosmos who has come to Earth to assist in many missions. We seem to stick out like sore thumbs among our family and peers, and always stand out in a crowd. This is not always a good thing.
My life has had many ups and downs. There have been times when I wondered what all the suffering is for. I felt lost. I was totally alone and absolutely hopeless. When my pain became too much for me to handle, I turned to drugs and alcohol to medicate myself. I allowed my sad stories to overwhelm me and became a powerless victim of circumstance. My ultimate goal for sharing these stories is to pay my recovery forward.
A little background information will be helpful before venturing to my blog page. My biological mother and father met at a camp for Muscular Dystrophy. My father was in a wheelchair and unable to care for me the way he would have liked. My mother was said to have had M.D., but I am not so sure. There are no others on her side of the family with M.D. Nevertheless, they met at the camp and fell madly in love.
I was born in December 1979, and within a month, my mother passed away. My father called upon his oldest sister to care for me. I was adopted by my Aunt and her husband. They already had a child of their own, and I became the little sister of the family. It didn’t take long for me to feel like the outcast of the family. I was told right away, at age 5, that I was adopted and that my mother passed away. I was told that my father was the one who occasionally came to visit in his wheelchair.
While growing up, anytime that I expressed an emotion other than gratefulness and happiness for being adopted, I was shut down. My Aunt grew up, alongside her four siblings in an orphanage, and had no clue as to how to raise up a child in love and honor. I was taught to respond to life by shutting down my emotions and becoming angry at the world. I was always the sensitive one, the odd one, the ugly duckling. I eventually became the family scapegoat.
I won’t go too far into the details of my upbringing here. No doubt, you will learn more about that later. They say that we choose our families and life lessons before we incarnate. At first, I could not grasp this. Why would anyone choose such a life of misery? A life full of pain is what my soul wanted? Looking back on all of this now, I am truly grateful for all the experiences I have had. The most painful events in my life have become my most valuable lessons.
In 2015 I experienced what is referred to as a “Walk-In.” A walk-in is when a new soul enters the body and allows the original soul to either leave the body completely or braid with the incoming soul in order to accomplish certain missions and tasks. My particular experience is as a braid. Not knowing what was happening, there was much confusion at first, to put it lightly! It has taken a few years to find my footing again, but I can say without a doubt that my walk-in saved my life.
Let me wrap up by saying that my most crucial life-lesson is self-love. We have all heard the saying, “You cannot love others until you love yourself.” I have spent my entire life discovering just how true this statement is. The world has become a more magical place for me because I am able to transcend duality and rediscover my divine nature. If not for all the darkness, I would never find the light. Every struggle I overcome penetrates the dimensions to peel away ancient wounds of my soul.
My life has had many ups and downs. There have been times when I wondered what all the suffering is for. I felt lost. I was totally alone and absolutely hopeless. When my pain became too much for me to handle, I turned to drugs and alcohol to medicate myself. I allowed my sad stories to overwhelm me and became a powerless victim of circumstance. My ultimate goal for sharing these stories is to pay my recovery forward.
A little background information will be helpful before venturing to my blog page. My biological mother and father met at a camp for Muscular Dystrophy. My father was in a wheelchair and unable to care for me the way he would have liked. My mother was said to have had M.D., but I am not so sure. There are no others on her side of the family with M.D. Nevertheless, they met at the camp and fell madly in love.
I was born in December 1979, and within a month, my mother passed away. My father called upon his oldest sister to care for me. I was adopted by my Aunt and her husband. They already had a child of their own, and I became the little sister of the family. It didn’t take long for me to feel like the outcast of the family. I was told right away, at age 5, that I was adopted and that my mother passed away. I was told that my father was the one who occasionally came to visit in his wheelchair.
While growing up, anytime that I expressed an emotion other than gratefulness and happiness for being adopted, I was shut down. My Aunt grew up, alongside her four siblings in an orphanage, and had no clue as to how to raise up a child in love and honor. I was taught to respond to life by shutting down my emotions and becoming angry at the world. I was always the sensitive one, the odd one, the ugly duckling. I eventually became the family scapegoat.
I won’t go too far into the details of my upbringing here. No doubt, you will learn more about that later. They say that we choose our families and life lessons before we incarnate. At first, I could not grasp this. Why would anyone choose such a life of misery? A life full of pain is what my soul wanted? Looking back on all of this now, I am truly grateful for all the experiences I have had. The most painful events in my life have become my most valuable lessons.
In 2015 I experienced what is referred to as a “Walk-In.” A walk-in is when a new soul enters the body and allows the original soul to either leave the body completely or braid with the incoming soul in order to accomplish certain missions and tasks. My particular experience is as a braid. Not knowing what was happening, there was much confusion at first, to put it lightly! It has taken a few years to find my footing again, but I can say without a doubt that my walk-in saved my life.
Let me wrap up by saying that my most crucial life-lesson is self-love. We have all heard the saying, “You cannot love others until you love yourself.” I have spent my entire life discovering just how true this statement is. The world has become a more magical place for me because I am able to transcend duality and rediscover my divine nature. If not for all the darkness, I would never find the light. Every struggle I overcome penetrates the dimensions to peel away ancient wounds of my soul.